Yesterday afternoon, I had an afternoon off and somehow I had ample time to do my own things. I went back to my burgeoning pile of papers at my study desk and dug out Maria Duval’s personal astrology forecast delivered to me on March this year.

I had this forecast read 3 times in April and after that, i put it to one side and since then it had been buried by others. Now, as I read it for the 4th time, the meaning looked different again. It was amazing feeling. I feel as though a invisible guardian angel was whispering to me right besides my ear, like a pedantic master doing the best to inculcate the knowledge to the student…Maria advises me to avoid repeating the same pitfalls but learn from the lessons. She says procastination is a big problem for me and wants me to shake it off as fast as I can as opportunities never wait for a person.

Actually, the words at the report are too forthright to the extent that it shocks me when I first read it. It perfectly describes my way of life and mentality, the way I work and think. I have a lot of weaknesses I admit, but I have always denied their existence as pride is often an issue.

As I read the report again yesterday, I self reflected my own life as I looked at those words, and why I made those seemingly unforgiveable errors in the past.

I am lucky to know Maria Duval and I won’t blame her for contacting late. There is this fate that brings her into my life.

Another glaring part of the report Maria brought up is that sometimes I may be too direct that my way of talking may offend some people. This is truly amazing! Yes, friends do say I talk too fast and direct that I may offend people unknowingly. Well, there is no malice on my part, however, I do feel I have less and less friends now. Is that the reason why?

I told myself as I thought. It is better to change now before it gets any worse.

One of the most important things you can do for yourself is to figure out exactly what success means to you. Many times people will work hard to achieve something they thought was success only to feel empty once they achieved it.

Focus on what will make you happy. Realize that what we really want in life isn’t anything material. What we all really want in life are feelings. If success to you means becoming a millionaire for example, you must ask yourself why you want to be a millionaire. Power? Respect? Freedom?

Realize that everything we do, we do to get a certain feeling. It could be freedom, love, connection, power, etc. Think about your goals and what you want to achieve and more importantly, why you want to achieve them. If your answer isn’t an emotionally based one, you need to dig deeper and find out the true reason. If you find that it’s anything other than what you truly want, that certain feeling, you will need to rethink your goals.

So, at this point, ask yourself, what does success truly mean to you? Becoming a millionaire? Owning a yacht? Doing what you love? Having the ability to spend time with your kids? Having the perfect body?

The answer to this question will be different for each person and the key to success and happiness can only be found in your own hand.

Wish you much success in life…

I am glad that I spent some time to help out a friend who is suffering from depression and anxiety. After helping her to move out of the dark shadows, I just burst into tears of joy. I am scared of depression, which to me, is a real slow and silent mind killer that will devour a person’s spiritual energy.

It all started for her when she allowed herself to fell into the mindless pit of self denigration when she sort of realized that she had nothing in life as compared to many of her so-called “friends”. Soon, she was shunned and ostracized, and being a lady who needed a lot of human attention, the pressure was just too big and she crumbled unless her own high expectations.

Over the months she had felt alone, worthless, and unhappy. She felt she’d nothing despite doing her best to gain affection. When I talked to her, she appeared heavily deprived of life and she hid herself in her room all day. I feel very bad for myself as I had not bothered to contact her these few years. It’s only when I met her mom in the street recently that I got to know her plight. I am so miserable that there really is no way to explain it.

Any kind of advice or reading or anything really, would be extremely appreciated.

The sound of water

June 11, 2009

I’m a big fan of not just the sound of water, but also the look. The constant motion is so soothing to me. I have a tiny water fountain in my room. I love it. I live in a region within less than two hour’s drive of a beautiful waterfall. The roar they make is amazing.

I also love rain, the rhythmic pattering it makes on my roof. It can look pretty cool too. I love the sensory experience of water. Even getting wet can be enjoyable when you surrender to it.

I feel that water is the most important element in our universe. It represents harmony since most of materials on earth has water element in it.

Maria duval mentions that in order to apply the law of attraction, we need to feel good at the moment NOW. I recently found out that the sound of water really made me feel good. Whether it’s the sound of water fountain in my room or the splashing sound of the waterfall, the sound of water calms me down and help me establish connections with my inner SELF. It’s just that amazing!

Yeah, in short, water is very calming and soothing – try water therapy if you are really stressed up.

Two traveling angels stopped to spend the night in the home of a wealthy family. The family was rude and refused to let the angels stay in the mansion’s guest room. Instead the angels were given a small space in
the cold basement. As they made their bed on the hard floor, the older angel saw a hole in the wall and repaired it.

When the younger angel asked why, the older angel replied, “Things aren’t always what they seem.”

The next night the pair came to rest at the house of a poor farmer and his wife. After sharing what little food they had the couple let the angels sleep in their bed where they could have a good night’s rest.

When the sun came up the next morning the angels found the farmer and his wife in tears. Their only cow, whose milk had been their sole income, lay dead in the field. The younger angel was infuriated and asked the
older angel how could you have let this happen?

The first man had everything, yet you helped him, she accused.

The second family had little but was willing to share everything, and you let the cow die.

“Things aren’t always what they seem,” the older angel replied.

“When we stayed in the basement of the mansion, I noticed there was gold stored in that hole in the
wall. Since the owner was so obsessed with greed and unwilling to share his good fortune, I sealed the
wall so he wouldn’t find it.”

“Then last night as we slept in the farmers bed, the angel of death came for his wife. I gave him the cow instead. Things aren’t always what they seem.”

Sometimes that is exactly what happens when things don’t turn out the way we think they should. If you have faith, you just need to trust that every outcome is always to your advantage.

You just might not know it until some time later…

Summer sun

June 4, 2009

Some friends just love the summer sun and heat. They think the feeling is just awesome. Summer months are the best time of the year for them. People head for the beaches, so in terms of tourism, it probably gets mor hectic this season when the flights could be rather full. In this economic uncertainty, the amount of retail and tourist revenues generated could be beneficial to kickstart the stagnating economy…

However, I just don’t enjoy it. The heat just gets my skin oily easily and pimples break out anytime too. It’s really bad i mean. My two favorite seasons are spring and autumn, because its nice cool and mild weather. I just don’t understand how people can enjoy being hot and sweaty and uncomfortable. When the heat gets too much, i’d rather hide in my room with the air conditioner on.

Thanks for allowing me to express…

I find this blog very productive for me to express how I feel. It could be better than expressing my thoughts to my closer ones sometimes. Yes I know it is one way most of the time, however, the trickle of comments received mean so much to me, as it shows people are coming consistently to this simple blog.

You have the authority to change the circumstances of your life. They have no power over you, even though it may seem that you are powerless to change them. Sometimes, as events roll out of control, it could appear as though the circumstances are stronger and defeating. But, as the master of your life, you can always re-direct your energy to something new.

Thoughts and personal beliefs shape a container for our universe to energy fill it to the brim and this brings an effect and outcome. Hence Maria Duval says what you think brings what kind of events into our common lives. A classic case of cause and effect in action.

For every cause, there’s an effect. The outcome cannot rule over the cause, or the creator. Each thought you have is like a drop of water. One drop won’t make a difference, but many drops of the same idea will fill a glass, then a bowl, then a pool.

By that time, the thought has become manifest in your life as a situation or circumstance. You can drown in that pool of effect, feeling like it’s impossible to get out of it. But the form that thought has created, thought can change.

You’ll need to begin a completely new thought process to fill another pool, and let the water in the original one evaporate since it’s not getting any new energy to maintain it. Once the new pool has more water in it than the first one, then you’ll see a significant change in your life. Since thought can change the effect, the effect must be subject to the creator.

Take a look at some of the effects in your life. Do you need to create a healthier lifestyle, get out of debt, get a better job, have a better relationship? Consider the thoughts that caused or created them.

It may not happen overnight. It’s probably taken you years of the old ideas to get you to this point. But by changing the original cause, which is your old thought patterns, the old effect will fade away. And not only will you have a better result, but you’ll realize that you have the power to design your life into what you want it to be.